Some dude, I forget exactly who, once said that “a foolish consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds.”  Okay I looked it up.  It was Ralph Waldo Emerson.  I also think that goes along with the quote from (google pause) okay, Ben Franklin, but also attributed to Albert Einstein frequently, about the definition of insanity being doing the same thing over and over but expecting different results.  I have been coming across this a lot lately, and today it’s really hitting home.  I get so annoyed by this behavior in other people, but then I find myself doing it, too.  We all do, obviously.  One thing I am really looking at in myself today is how I represent myself to people and how that relates to how they treat me.  Logically, I know that if I represent myself as, not stupid, but maybe naïve or somewhat ignorant to a person, of course that person will treat me as a student or child instead of an equal.  It’s not fair for me to expect otherwise and get mad when they do.  I see this a lot in my family.  My younger aunt likes to play the role of a bimbo, weak and weak-minded, she loves to tell people about all of the things she doesn’t know and acts very bubbly.  Then she gets frustrated that people don’t think she’s very smart.  Well?  That’s what you told them!  I do the same thing with one friend in particular.  I position myself as lacking in knowledge, then get mad when she tries to instruct me.  Going to work on this.  I’m working on a lot of things right now, but this one is now really bugging me.  I can’t keep my behaviors the same and then expect my life to be different.  The other place I really need to use this is with my finances.  I got paid today and figuring my bills and man is that depressing.  I really MUST change my habits as pertains to money!  I keep saying this and saying this and then when I make changes and progress, I regress and get myself into the same mess all over again.  I don’t want to work two jobs for the rest of my life!  I want to have a savings and little to no debt.  I want to be able to afford to do things to my house.  I want to get a tax refund and not immediately calculate which credit card it should go toward.  I am doing the same thing while wanting and needing a different result.  This needs to change.

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